Tuesday, March 4, 2008

4 Days to Go

After Friday I have a bachelor's degree. It's really surreal. I can't even believe it myself. It doesn't "feel" like I thought it would "feel". In fact, it doesn't "feel" at all. I'm not really excited, though I know I should be.
Maybe it's because I've done college so untraditionally. Maybe it's because despite having a degree, I still don't know "what I want to be when I grow up." Okay, so I have some ideas what I want to be when I grow up, but just not
how I'm going to achieve it. I would love to teach. I'd really love to teach in a Christian school. I think I'm good at it. I enjoy it. I love speaking into the lives of youth and modeling life for them. I'd love to do church work of some sort.
You see, completing undergraduate studies has me wondering about a lot of things. Will I ever find that job that I look forward to serving at every day? The job that I don't mind getting up to go to? Will I even find a job in my desired field? Do I need to do MORE schooling? Will that get me where I want to go in life?
I have a World Vision t-shirt that says on the front, "You Have One Life... Do Something." It's my favorite t-shirt ever. There's so much truth packed into that one line. It can easily be followed by the title of a book written by John Piper, "Don't Waste Your Life."
I don't want to be 80 and wishing I would have done things differently. Not necessarily small things here and there, because those things are bound to happen, I'm talking about big things, things like careers, and traveling, mission trips and fulfilling dreams (the God-given ones of course). But every time I read the front of that shirt I get this urge within me to get to doing... something. It's just trying to figure out what that something is.
So in May I'll have a bachelor's degree. And I don't know where I'll be in 5 years. I know where I hope I'll be and what I hope to be doing, but I'm praying for God's plan and will and direction in my life.
So I leave you with this inspiring message on my World Vision t-shirt...